minimanymainymore

9th SEPTEMBER 2009

Eid day is coming soon . Assignments are getting bersepah like bugs . [ why must bugs ? ]
me even ain't sleep yet now . nah , 5.45am in the morning .
btw , due to my health condition which getting more worst than before PLUS all the heart feelings condition yang macam motherfather woopsy blabla hell , i feel like wanna puke someone ! [ again , why must puke ? ]

argggghhhhhhhhh .. tense oh the fucking course ! and i don't know why i am cursing here . haha !
i need to go for my neurological checkup for my head , x-ray blabla and so on but i didn't .
aku banyak kerja la nak buat wehhh ! go to hell with my healthness . malas pikir dowh !

and YOU !!!!
YES YOU !!!!

IHATEYOU !!!

why must you make me cry over again ?
damn you !

for you [ you know who you are ] , go learn some manners . you can hurt me over and over but i still have my own pride . i really hate the way you treat me . i do have feelings .

ahh babi . asek2 benda sama aku nk tulis , benda sama aku nak cakap .
do whatever so on lahh .
i dont care .

i hate you .
really i do .

awake

sigh . i didn't go for two classes today .
my condition is getting worse .

i can laugh , being fun , making jokes , smiles widely like usual but deep inside , i know that there is something isn't right with me .
i can pretend like nothing had happened , but it just making me more pethatic about myself .

i woke up from bed and went to the clinic .
the doc advise me to go to the specialist centre and do the appointment for my medical checkup .

i'm always fainted .
my visions goes blank for several times this week .

the doc is still talking to me (too much of advises) and i didn't hear at all .
haha .

btw , of course i'm worried bout myself .

should i go to the hkl ?

fainted and collapsed

2nd of september 2009 .

ahahaha . i don't know how to tell this .

for the first time in my life , i was fainted in class during lessons period .

gouch . at the moment i realized that i'll collapse .
i'd told 'mak' and 'merey' that i will collapse anytime .
gaha ! told you so !

tak pasal je aku pengsan dalam kelas puan fariza . huhu .
she must be worried like hell kan ?
tetibe je panggil name aku then aku pengsan .

i don't know why .
i just felt something wasn't right .
like something's gonna happen to me which i didn't know what it was .

but for sure , semua orang kat studio macam turun padang angkat aku .
haha . of course lahh no one will larat to carry me right .
ahahahahahaha !

dah lah masa mula2 collapse , the whole class like didn't know what to do .
merey told me so .
they all like , just watching me tumbang and sit still on their place .
for at least after few minutes , baru semua macam kelam kabut nk angkat .
poor me right ? T.T


for god sake , i didn't know who were actually that carried me out from class until puan fariza's car .
but i just wanna say THANK YOU to all of you .
my classsmates , my seniors , to puan fariza and also puan nik .
A VERY BUNCH THANKS FROM ME !!!

sesampai je depan klinik , the man yang naik kereta dengan puan nik angkat aku ohohoi !
all alone by himself .
wah ! cayalah !
gahahaha .
tu yang merey cakap , lain kali before pengsan , bagitau dia dulu awal2 in case if 'he' will carried me just like now leh gak merey tangkapkan gambar dulu .
ahaha !

mesti puan nik dengan puan fariza terkejut kan ?
poor me . aku tak sedar langsung .
punya la selama ni teringin kena dukung/angkat dengan dia tak tercapai , but now when he already carried me , i was fainted and not in the real world .
i was under conscious .

sepatutnye aku kena masuk drip , but i refused .
enough is enough .
dengar je doc cakap 'masukkan air sebab blood pressure dia rendah', teros aku tolak tangan doc .
masa tu dah macam sedar sikit .
hard decision to make but i just don't want it anymore .
cukuplah .
dah terlalu banyak kali aku kena inject drip .

i don't want to hold on with it anymore again .

i have colestrol , zero amount of imunity , low blood pressure , and high sugar level .

aku sepatutnye kena tahan wad , tapi aku tak nak .

i'm getting more better so i just wanna go to my room .
just get me out of here . (wad yang berbau ubat)
cepat2 aku ajak merey balik yang masa tu tgh teman aku dalam wad before the doc realize i'm gone .


hahahhaa ! nak tahan aku kat wad ????
huh . memang TAK arrr .

btw , a very huge thanks to all , and lepas ni i will be more careful .
take my medicine on time . ( yang actually dah berbulan tak makan )
mom , sorry . i will not repeat this mistake .

haishh , i wonder if she knew i'm fainted .
entah2 dah suruh balik ipoh dah kot .
hihi .


the best part of all , i have to buka puasa !
haha !
itu jelah .
arghh sakit kepala makin menjadi2 .

P/S : sayang, ily .
even kau macam buat tak tau kat aku , tp aku tau kau risau kankan ?
(if not, you wouldn't there , right infront of the clinic and carried me just now kan ?)
merey : 'padahal , dia tak siap lagi keje black and white , sebab tu dia tunggu kau depan klinik sampai kau sedar' .

haha ! babi kau F.I !
nasib baik aku sayang kau ! ;DD

to all readers ; don't forget to eat breakfast , drink alots of water , take a good care of yourself , take your medicines , and so on . (more to myself act)

puan fariza , sorry sangat2 !
cause of me , class have to be canceled .
huhu .
and en mior , perlu ke anda turun padang datang ke wad klinik uitm jua ?
motif ?
haha .

i looooooovvveeeee my lecturers !
they all are soooo soooo caring , protective , and loveable .

i will not regret by being one of the students from the department of photography and creative imaging of UiTM Lendu , Alor Gajah Malacca .

GET ME OUT OF HERE !!

Damn ! it was a veeeeeryyyyy long tiring day !
and it was a bad day ever for me .

today , i decided 'ponteng' my ko just to finish up my black and white assignments , where's the dateline is on tomorrow .
but then , he forgot to put those pics in his own laptop .

haiyaaaa , camno nih ?

free free je ponteng koko .
gaaaaa . mine was done .
you ? huhu . how i wanna help you ?