awake

sigh . i didn't go for two classes today .
my condition is getting worse .

i can laugh , being fun , making jokes , smiles widely like usual but deep inside , i know that there is something isn't right with me .
i can pretend like nothing had happened , but it just making me more pethatic about myself .

i woke up from bed and went to the clinic .
the doc advise me to go to the specialist centre and do the appointment for my medical checkup .

i'm always fainted .
my visions goes blank for several times this week .

the doc is still talking to me (too much of advises) and i didn't hear at all .
haha .

btw , of course i'm worried bout myself .

should i go to the hkl ?