end of 2009

nearly end of the year .
perhaps i'm gonna be a new strong person on the next year .
yeap , really hope so .

whole these years , wild crazy fer me .

all the fights , the backstabbers , the problems , the end of relationship , the new hot guys i've been crush [err singers only ;) ] , the scandals , the new bf , the heartbroken , etc ..

so many huh ???

and that it's what i called as drama queen .

all the daily routines from the beginning to the end of the journey .

but my journey just started , it won't end up easily yeah i guess .

i've met many types of people on this earth .
sometimes , it just make my eyes and my mind open up wider than before .
lots of behavior from alot of kinkies , some may just ruin us but some are pushing us to be more better .

i always met someone , yet falling in love to a person whom don't even know how to appriciate me . at least , for god sake , just appriciate my appearance that's all .
i'm not asking for more . :(

being heartbroken for several thousand times by the same person is pethatic isn't it ?

thus , i'm a very stupid person on this world whom always been treated like that .

my own bf , cheated on me [ now currently my ex] . not once , but i think more than fifth times .. still on that time i'd waited for him to change . haha . i took a very long time perhaps to let him go . 3 years we've been together but i'm just nothing to him . just a kampung girl nervely for his love and loyality .

but then again , it happened again to me .

i can't help by falling in love .

HIM , is the perfect guy for me and i love him whole heartly .

the one that approve me and accept me the way i am .
the one that full sense of humor .
the one who makes me laugh .
the one who scold me enough .

and yet the one whom HURT me badly .

you are my future sayang , of course i can't let you go off me .
but please stop hurtin' me even more would you ?

the past is ruin me .

just give me the chance to proof it to you .

that i just love you no matter how bad you treat me so .

ahhhahaha !!

i think i'm gonna cry .
lets end this up .

to a bright new year , hope so .

happy new year fellas !