end of 2009

nearly end of the year .
perhaps i'm gonna be a new strong person on the next year .
yeap , really hope so .

whole these years , wild crazy fer me .

all the fights , the backstabbers , the problems , the end of relationship , the new hot guys i've been crush [err singers only ;) ] , the scandals , the new bf , the heartbroken , etc ..

so many huh ???

and that it's what i called as drama queen .

all the daily routines from the beginning to the end of the journey .

but my journey just started , it won't end up easily yeah i guess .

i've met many types of people on this earth .
sometimes , it just make my eyes and my mind open up wider than before .
lots of behavior from alot of kinkies , some may just ruin us but some are pushing us to be more better .

i always met someone , yet falling in love to a person whom don't even know how to appriciate me . at least , for god sake , just appriciate my appearance that's all .
i'm not asking for more . :(

being heartbroken for several thousand times by the same person is pethatic isn't it ?

thus , i'm a very stupid person on this world whom always been treated like that .

my own bf , cheated on me [ now currently my ex] . not once , but i think more than fifth times .. still on that time i'd waited for him to change . haha . i took a very long time perhaps to let him go . 3 years we've been together but i'm just nothing to him . just a kampung girl nervely for his love and loyality .

but then again , it happened again to me .

i can't help by falling in love .

HIM , is the perfect guy for me and i love him whole heartly .

the one that approve me and accept me the way i am .
the one that full sense of humor .
the one who makes me laugh .
the one who scold me enough .

and yet the one whom HURT me badly .

you are my future sayang , of course i can't let you go off me .
but please stop hurtin' me even more would you ?

the past is ruin me .

just give me the chance to proof it to you .

that i just love you no matter how bad you treat me so .

ahhhahaha !!

i think i'm gonna cry .
lets end this up .

to a bright new year , hope so .

happy new year fellas !

drama queen

it's 2.57am in the morning and i feel like my heart is having a HUGE hole .

it starts with joy and laughs when farah called me . having a chit-chat , gosipping and share our own stories like before is really satisfied me .

plus when i got back all my old fellow friends and ex-schoolmates , it makes me more happier tonight .

knowing bout the wedding of my ex-classmate and hell yeah pretty sure i'm shocked [ and still thus ] and i think that i'm very thankful for having 'em back in my life again .

but ....

i went online on my someone's ..

and he seems happy ..

which he never deserved it !

why ?

why i felt like been punched from my behind ?

and why i feel terribly lost right now ??

i need to talk to my sayang but he's not even switch on his phone .

i really2 don't know what to do right now .

am i still loving him ?

if not , why must this tears fall down right now ??

tlg ...

xpnh lgsg ingt die dah ..

tlg ...

i'm strong enough right ? ....

A VERY LONG HOLIDAYS

wow !!!

it's been a while i didn't write huh ?
overall , this semester break is very2 hectic and i have to go on through it boreness ..

bosan !!! makan , tido , texting jap , tgk tv and repeated all over again ! :(

besides dreaming of my new SWEETHEART adam labby baby ADAM LAMBERT , i think there's nothing can make me breath rite now .

haha ! kinda flirt but i still ain't pervert .

hurm . there's alot things that had happened to me .

a very long tiring holidays actually .

besides living alone in a house more often , and several break up , fights and so on .. i think it's close than before .

still the same things going on .

same routines .

same person that hurting me over and over again .

huwaaaa !!!!!

i hate holidays !!!!

it make me sick !!!

btw , thank god i still have my old fellas . yeah i know , some people changed , but some are still going still and just be themself [ the one that i know before ] .

hari tu lepak lepak dengan ema dekat silibin . huhu . miss her !!!

and thank god , masa tak mengubah die . she's still the same ema , my ever bestfriend .

and she always there whenever i need her .

tak lame kitorg hanging out . ade la dalam due hari . tapi itu pun due hari yg bermakne untuk aku . [ even the kfc burger yg kecik gile babi buat kau mengamok sampai bantai aku punye seaweed sampai habis , aku tetap gak nak kate itu hari2 paling bahagie aku !!! ;) ]

haha ! for god sake i miss my old school !!

macam2 benda kite nak tempuh bile dah meningkat dewasa ni . [err belum tue lagi eh !!]

macam biase , orang lebih suke menghargai bende2 yang dah lepas .

lumrah hidup kan ? suke menyesal bile bende dah jadi .

time is gold .

but when something really bad happened to you , then on that time baru nak sedar menghargai mase .

now , it's nearly to the new 2010 year .

bile nak masuk kampus nak register pon aku tak tau .

uitm student portal sucks !!!!

at least leave a msg la , tak pon buat announce ke when we can go back and reg .

biar la kitorg buat preparation a week before we're going back to the hell campus !!

tak leh pakai la .

aku ni dah la rumah jauh berbatu2 .
brg2 banyak lagi nak angkot .

siot !!!!

hurh .

i think that's all fer today .